Come and Gone

Well, the fairs have come and gone. The trip eventful. The first night there I sought out my brothers to spend an enjoyable evening only to find Trenton and Kory in some small conference with Deimos and Asher. Seems they will not be staying in Lydius after all and I suppose it eases Trenton's mind in having to deal with them becoming citizens. The woman Quiana joined us on the trip as well as it appears, she joined us in the tent for a while. The woman knows nothing of manners. She went and proceeded to eat in front of everyone without any regard to the men in the tent. Not that I wished anything to eat at the time but she could have asked Trenton before retreating food on a plate and when she did finally ask us, she did it in an oh-by-the-way attitude that disgusted me. By that time in the evening I was fed up with free women because not only did she forget her satus in that tent she ran her mouth...and we all know me and free women running their mouths. The newest guest to Lydius had joined the caravan as well and we got to meet the man there. He seemed alright but what I've learned from Trenton is that time will only tell and patience is its virtue. The man's first name the only thing I remember and only because Trenton said it, is Trias...not that he told me the name for when I went to shake hands with him, he merely said a ho. And he said he only ate grapes. Seems a bit ridiculous, a man of his size needs his strength and man cannot live on grapes alone. So he cannot and will not tell me that he only eats grapes for I do not believe him. So I am watching him...once a liar, always a liar...and nothing gets past Brennus Tormaigh.

So, aye, my mood stank when my brother Van and his mate Sin came along. Usually with family I seem to relax and the time is further enoyable but that night something was different. When they showed up, Kory and I were in our usual, rolling around on the floor beating each other up. Well, its not like Sin has never seen us do such and when Kory sat on me, pinning me to the ground tellling me to say schnookums did Sin finally turn to ask Van why we did this to each other. That wasnt all she asked, she carried on smearing me and Kory's honor, our manhood by saying comments like she understood how men liked variety and wondered if our mates knew and what not...I'd had it. I jumped up and went off on both of them. Aye, I could have handled it better, true but I felt that Van could have stopped her without me interfering, that he could have been brother enough to tell Sin that it was enough what she was asking and that she knew how Kory and me were around each other but he didnt. Instead he sat there and let her smear me and my honor and then told me to take nothing to heart? I didnt understand it and I was so mad that I turned around to Sin and told her that I thought she should have stayed in her collar because frankly that wasn't the first time I've heard crap come out of her head. Well, the minute my crap rolled from my mouth, Van disowned me...said he would not acknowledge me as a brother. So not only did the dagger sink deep into my heart, Van further twisted it making the stab wound a hole. The only thing I can think of was that he never truly accepted me as a brother, that he only tried because of his oath to Lydius. He also admitted to thinking me and Kory fools for being the way we are so that further confirmed it for me. He never truly loved me as a brother...but I did. Ive loved all my brothers with my heart and sword and will NEVER let them down. Had the tables been turned, Callie would have been cuffed to my furs for asking what Sin asked. Some men just have no pride in themselves anymore and I really hate to think that Van is one of them. Well, he can disown me all he wants, take the love of a woman before the honor of a brother but he will always be my brother...that he cant take away even if he tried. The moment I placed that Lydius ring on my finger we were bonded, like it or not. Needless to say, the loss of my brother Van is devastating to me. I am a very passionate man and what has transpired between me and my brother cuts deeply. My eyes still mist when I think about it and I hate to cry. I told Trenton that I doubt he will cool off in a few days...that I doubt he will ever accept me back. He demanded an apology, I gave him one and he refused it. So be it.

So now we are back home, things feel a bit awkward as of late but I am getting back into the swing of things. Callie is feeling better now, able to eat full meals and hold them down. Her and ember have become friends at least...maybe not best friends but I see them more relaxed together and that pleases me. Callie is still unsure about my zyana, I know she is and so I have zyana all to myself, I will not bring her out until she is ready to deal with Callie. And Callie is used to the idea of my other slave. The way I see it is they both have no choice so basically its up to me, when I am good and ready to have Callie throw a fit will zyana be brought out in her presence. Ok, so she wont throw a fit in public but I know she will say something to me in private. She always does. Odin I love that woman!