Unreachable Virtue

Will I ever learn? You'd think that by now I would have reached the virtue of patience but I guess I havent or worse yet, I am unsure if I ever will. Tonight was a great night in spite of my stupidity of letting my anger get the better of me.

After my last shift and last scroll left on Trentons desk, I sent ember off to the market to show alcyone around mainly and left her coin to get her some much needed toiletries and beastie stuffs that she needed, they both needed. I headed out onto the verandah with Callie and as always she was beautiful. Each time I come home its as if Im seeing her for the first time. Anyway, we talked of how Caden finally got revenge on his twin by making him cry this time and how Breanna has found it amusing to sling strained carrots and suls at dasha. But what made me laugh even more was that Caleb then threw water on her, yelling "clean". I then reminded Callie that we needed to continue our little venture that we started the other night with her new "toy" and she became very curious. Our conversation was cut short of course when others started to show up.

Cronus, Van and Meg showed up, of course Trenton, Cara and ayana were there, my mate and of course my girls returned from the market and they were there...it was bliss. Since the day I came to Lydius this group of people have had my heart...and I would die for them. The sleenturd didnt show but hey, cant have everything. I know the city keeps him always busy so it only makes kicking his arse next time I see him even better. We all seemed to be enjoying tonight, joking and laughing, Cronus getting challenged. Odin he's held that Champion ring way too long and I know Trenton will win it back. But then again, if he doesnt, it will be utterly enjoyable to watch Van take it. Even Jared and Damon showed up, the two guests I met last hand or so. It seems they have been enjoying the city and even getting quite comfortable with us here when of course I had to let my anger get the better of me.

Its blatantly obvious that our guest warrior and his traveling "companion" are close and I myself am dealing with that quite well I thought...until tonight. In trying to include our guests in a bit of frivolity I ended up getting my buttons pushed. (Im beginning to think people enjoy pushing my buttons!) The truth of the matter is, I wasnt sure how to react being caught off guard, so naturally my instincts took over and as fate would have it I came off sounding brass. I knew he was joking when he told me I couldnt keep my eyes off of him and I even laughed at first. But he insisted and well, that kind of moxy just grates on my last nerve. Ok, so he has attitude and I suppose he's prolly needed to toughen his exterior for who is but I in turn needed to let others know (and I do that well, Im told) you dont fool around with Brennus Tormaigh as such and expect not to get wounded! And so again, Trenton had to seige this bosk by the horns and pound a little patience talk into my head. He made me realize that the man was comfortable around me, that I should be flattered, not offended that he was able to joke and be himself in my presence. Odin, of course any has that right and I dont want to be the one to hinder but cmon! Must I weild a shield for my backside as well to prove it?! Needless to say there will be no apologies, neither of us did nothing to warrant any, right? Right.

Tonight was the first night alcyone spent with my family. She was nervous my pretty little white silk, it was obvious but I know that her nerves will quell in time. She's been trained, I can tell, somewhat but we have so much to explore and she will learn to honor me as much as ember does. alcyone was perfect tonight. And I have to applaud my girl, ember, in her efforts to make her feel welcomed. There was many a time that I've had to put my foot down when a new beast I tried to bring to my chain. ember has finally reached her virtue. She has truly earned her rightful place on my chain and as I've instructed her, my hand will only get more firm from here on out...more will be expected of her, more will be extracted. ember...Odin, in them teal silks that I so love sauntering about, serving others tonight. I make that I dont see, especially when family is about but I see...and I imagine...and my sessions with her play out in my head often times I lose track of what is being talked about in the conversations about me. Tonight was no different.

Until next time my pages of rence....