Too Much En

My dear rence...remember when I said that I would quite possibly never learn patience? Well, I think its confirmed. My anger has gotten me a slap on the hand by the Ubar. Maybe without realizing it my questions to those who visit unnanounced get more and more harsh as my days tick on...I don't know. All I know is that I was told by my Ubar, he considered my actions rude and my behavior uncalled for, pierced me like a lance. And its not that my Ubar bit my head off cuz he knows me, he knows my heart but coming from him, they still had a bite to them. I have always told Trenton that I would never let him down and clearly he found my actions disappointing. I suppose I come on too strong and being EnSword, according to Trenton, alone leaves most nervous. Ok, so I forget I'm the EnSword sometimes cuz in all reality I am no different than any warrior that protects their homestone. But I truly think my questions weren't asked any differently than what I've done in the past. Simply put...I got irritated when I asked this man a question and another man to whom the question was not directed, answered me, twice? and my questions werent rapid fire either. So anyway, I guess Im too much En for my breeches and need to change my methodology. But in my opinion, there are just no more men on Gor anymore, their skin too thin and now my hide needs conditioning? pft! Whatever!

Patience is a virtue....one I know for a fact grows further and further away from me.