Amends Made

Glorious night! I have to write it down so that I never forget that on this night, the 15th night of Rastar (9) in the year 10,156 CA (mun date 11-30-06) Van took my arm in a firm grasp and called me brother. I will never forget this night...the night my brother returned to me. It was quite some time that we had our little outburst, my apology quickly offered, but my words hurting my brother so much that he disowned me as a brother that same night, my apology refused. My heart laid heavy since then but Trenton told me he would come around sooner or later that I needed to give him time. So I pushed it aside and last night he finally accepted my apology, telling me that he voted for me to receive a full chair in the caste election. But it wasnt the vote that made me happy, it was the fact that he called me brother that made my heart soar. And so I have been at the marketplace all day today finding special items for my brothers. Yes, brothers...I will lavish my family with gifts. Callie thinks me ill for being at the marketplace, so worried was she that she had me lay down and had a fire roaring in our sleep chambers, dinner was vulo soup with suls and some warmed meade AND served in bed. I wasnt sick but dinner made me feel exceptional.

Jared and Alexander are now citizens of our great city and just in time, Jared and I finished his training and Trenton has sent in his application for registered rarius which wont take too long I hope. Jared's training a breeze for he's lived the life of a warrior and his actions speak louder than any application or words can...he wont let Trenton, me or Lydius down, I feel it. He's also been appointed Captain of the Kaiila Mounted Calvary and I've heard the men of the mounted guard around the city talk excitedly about it, seems he's impressed them and they have easily accepted him as their superior. He will fit right in, already he's enjoys teasing me and making Trenton laugh at my expense...just like Kory...my brothers, the turds. And Jared has nicknamed me chippy turd. Ive allowed it, anyone else will have a lot to answer for if that name leaves their lips but Jared is granted sole rights to it.

Now Alex is different. He's quiet but quality. He doesnt know it but I saw him diligently work on those ships he built for Trenton. Meticulous in his inspection and thorough in his craftsmanship. He's gained my respect, his youthfulness and pretty boy appearance I judged harshly. I dont think he will get a turd name. He's managed to weasal out of that one. He's a turd in his own right. Or maybe it just hasnt come to me. These men are now citizens and their lives I will protect and fight for...honored to stand at their side.

I havent seen much of Callie or the children as of late but I do peek in on them when I get home from my duties. I sit sometimes for an ahn or so to watch them serenely sleeping, like angels they appear...just like their father. And my girls have been good to me, I see them even less than I do my children but when I do see them they serve me well. ember a fresh breeze of innocence with just as much wickedness and my alcy, she's coming along quite nicely. She still has much to learn but it takes time for a well worn glove to fit the hand just right after all, ember took a while to break in and now she honors me in all ways. There is no doubt alcy will reach that level. I will pierce her come la'torvis. Adorn her I will. She seems excited but nervous I can sense. She will learn to trust me.