Quiet Reflection

It's been a few days since I've last written within the pages of my thoughts. Duties consume me which for me is a good thing. It keeps my mind occupied and concentrating on what's important. Tho I do regret that I havnet spent as much time with my children as I should but that will change. I've decided I will take them on their kaiila ride by the 3rd day of each hand and the last two days we will spend at the cottage, sailing lessons and fishing with my sons. I promised Breanna she could join us. My sons grumbled and both asked why being that girls ruin everything. I have to admit, most do but I reminded them that Breanna was their sister and not just a girl. It was up to them to help me in her protection and guidance that together the 3 of us could make sure Breanna understands her place in life and that there was nothing wrong with her learning to fish like her brothers. After all, she would learn how to prepare the fish to be eaten. Boy this being a father is a lot of work but they seemed to feel better about their little sister being around so much.

I havent had much time or rather I havent taken the time to jot down my thoughts since the tournament. I placed 3rd in the event and received a set of turian daggers and a gold coin. The coins I received from both tourneys I am saving for my sons. It will be kept for them until they're training complete. Second year running I've managed to maintain my title. A deep honor I assure you. My Ubar says that I will have no trouble keeping my title becuz he considers me to be one of Gor's greatest warriors. Sometimes I think my Ubar has more faith in me then I do myself and if it werent for him and his belief in me, I wouldnt be such a great deal. But becuz of him and his faith in me, I strive to be the best for him, for Lydius, for my brothers and now for my children.

I think the boys enjoy the cottage, they love to roam the perimeter of the cottage grounds. I've watched them as they stand and look out towards the Northern Forest in awe, wondering what's out there and knowing Ive explained to the them the dangers of the forest, it fascinates them. I tell them of the hunts of great warriors killing Kur and larls, even sleens and they listen in wide-eyed wonderment and I know they prolly dream at night of such feats themselves. My little warriors, I already see in their eyes the makings of a deep honor they will hold and the love of life they will develop.

My dreams have ceased. Tho I am still left in the dark as to what frightened me so much that they would wake me up. I am sure it was symbolic of the fears I faced and since I decided that facing my fears was the only way I would shake them from my psyche, it seemed to work and the nightmares have stopped. So sleep has returned and I am now feeling like my feet are firmly planted back on the ground.

I suppose Im going back to being the welcome wagon of Ldyius. Maybe its just coincidence that Im the first anyone ever meets, or so they say. More guests. Another of the culinary caste by the name of Hope. Interesting name to say the least, she seemed a sweet and cheerful lady from what I could tell. Met up with her on the beach. I hope she enjoys her stay in Lydius. Lydius is enchanting if I say so myself.