Dreams

My days have been busy and filled with adventure. It feels as though my life has taken a turn for the better. Or is it all a dream? I had been diving into my duties to forget about things and concentrate on doing my best for my city and my brothers; I decided I would take a small break. It had been some time since I took Fury out for a flight just to feel the wind and see the landscape, feel the rays of Lar-Torvis radiating down on me. So I took Fury out and we left the city to a small place I found between Lydius and the Meadowlands where a couple of lakes were. It seemed hidden becuz when I got there nobody was there until Afsana arrived. From the ihn I saw her, I thought her gorgeous. I'd never met anyone from the desert...well, except Jared and tho I love my brother, he's not as gorgeous as Afsana. Granted I didnt see her fully, just her eyes and the color of her eyes but if eyes can make you do a double take...them are some pretty eyes.

Anyway, ember was with me, the poor girl still after all these envars cringes with tarnrides. Of course I havent taken her up often enough to get her used to them and this time she rode in the basket. Most jira think somethings up when they ride in a tarn basket. :::has to chuckle::: so I landed Fury for her to hunt, insolent beasts need to keep in touch with their wild side on occasion. That was enstilled in me as I grew up training these mighty birds. Like all animals, to get their most use from them you need to let them soar, let them be what they are and my job as a tarnsman would be too easy if these bird's spirits were ever broken, if that's even possible. So I meet my desert flower at the lakes where she asks if I would be so kind as to allow her guard to pull off some leaves from the tem I was leaned against. I look up at the leaves and note...they're just leaves! I must have stared at her funny cuz she was compelled to tell me she collected them and something about drying and I dunno. I was just stunned anyone collected leaves.

Well, somehow we got to talking, found her company pleasant and didnt want her to depart. Didnt know if I'd ever see her again so I brought her home to Lydius. She'd never been and told her all about my city and how beautiful it was. Her first tarnride and she made me chuckle when she told me she was afraid of falling off (she has the most adorable accent) oh, and then there's the log. Odin she wanted me to put a log between her and I so that it would separate us. Well, needless to say, there was a log between us in that saddle. And she was amazed at how quickly I put that log away when we landed. I had to really think about how to explain that to her when she insisted she wanted to "handle" that log, keep it safe for our next tarnride. She finally conformed to my reasoning to her about that and the subject was dropped. We arrived in Lydius, got her a pass and now she's here, visiting and brightening my day. Needless to say, I've spent most of my waking ahn with her and find myself getting used to her being around that when she's not near, Im missing her and anxiously await when I see her again. She told me when she arrived here in Lydius, knowing that I like flowers, that she would send me a single flower for my desk every day. And the woman has kept her word! As a warrior my word is my life...I am attracted to her honesty. She has told me she feels these things but isnt sure what it is and felt she was getting sick, needing to see a healer. I just chuckled when she told me her symptoms, she said her stomach felt like there were butterflies and her heart seemed to race when I was near. I explained to her that they were emotions, emotions we needed to explore and that there were steps in handling these emotions. We have reached the first step...friendship.

Some days have passed and like I said I've spent most of my waking time with Sana. I've shown her a good portion of the city, we've shared meals and I've even gone to the market with her (maybe Im the one that needs the healer!). She wants to learn how to fly a tarn...ok, unprecedented and as a woman the birds would eat her alive but she can learn to maneuver them in flight, at least when her and I fly, certainly not in battle...so I agreed. My ember I could tell is leery about any free woman that gets close but she knows better than to voice her concerns to me. It's enough that I can see it in her eyes that nurturing nature of hers, the one that tells me that if given half a chance she'd treat me like a little boy and take me under her wing and hide me away from all the hurt this harsh world has. When we met Afsana in the lakes, she made a joking comment about another bee drawn to honey...referencing the fact that Afsana was yet another fw after me. She knew immediately my displeasure for that was disrespectful to me as well as to Afsana...ember will not be judge to the free, Afsana had every right to be at the lakes and she was not there for me or attracted to me and I certainly am not a man that cant take care of himself. So I've had a few bee stings but bees once they sting die....anyway, ember knew that even in jest she was displeasing and that alone was punishment enough for her until she without any guidance from me, apologized, realizing that she had made me unhappy. Altho, I do admit, perhaps a whipping would have been pleasurable and make up for it...who knows, it still might happen, at least to keep her on her toes.

Right now, I sit at the cliffs, writing down my thoughts, knowing that Sana is awake and wondering where I am. She met the children yesterday and we camped out on the cliffs, brought along a few guards and so I supposed I'd better return before the guards go looking for me. Until next time my journal...