12th day of Se'Var (10) in the year 10,157 CA

We are still in Turmas and my sons are yet to be born. They make me anxious. Not only that I long to be back in Lydius performing my duties to my city and my Ubar. Never have I felt so anxious and it makes me wonder what is wrong with me. Today I thought I would go out into the plains to try and occupy my mind, do something with my time but Fury squawked, so instead I took her off the coast of Turia. I suppose the desert where there is little water would be too much for her. I miss riding her thru the skies. The plains are wonderful, dont get me wrong but riding sand beasts is nothing compared to the flight of the tarn, brothers of the wind. Take me up into the skies, that is where I belong. I know I cant be gone too long...Odin forbid if I am gone and Sana would need me. Poor thing she is so scared and she tries not to show it so that I do not worry but we both fail at hiding our emotions when it comes to each other. She is so small and delicate that even my words cut her to the bone sometimes, I cant even make love to her without fear of breaking her. Having my twins will be pain enough Im sure she will curse me under her breath for putting her thru it...for a few ihn anyway because I do know that she would endure all to bring more warriors into the world...at least mine.

The coast here is like any coast only the waters appear warmer...greener, more crystaline. And even though they look inviting, they are nothing compared to the beaches of Lydius. Perhaps because I know every nook and cranny of my city's beaches and spend my time out on that particular jetty it means more to me. I miss spending time out on that jetty, it is something I have decided I will do the ihn I return home. I sit here on a large boulder overlooking the shores of the beach here, not sure where here is...I do know that I passed Turia a ways back. I know that if I go up north along the coast I'll hit Kamras and south I might see Anango where I hear is very exotic, almost tempted to go down there and see for myself. But I have no time now...maybe one day. Time for me to return back to Minu Taslim and see if Sana is alright.