1st day of First Hand of the Month of Se'Var (10) in the year 10,157 CA

I sit here by the dim of the room. Just a brief note that things between Sana and I have deepened. She showed me a room that was her fathers and before I could blink she transformed into a tuchuck wielding bola thrower. The image is strong in my mind one Im not sure I can erase easily. I know this is the desert but I am still unsure as to why she needed to know these things. Lex has since sat me down and explained it so I have decided to unclench my butt cheeks yet again. I know that I love Sana, its just a little unnerving to find things out like I have. Anyway, we have sat and talked things out, I know of the weapons my woman can handle but I will not allow her to weild them and she has promised not to...I trust her on that. I could see the worry in Sana's eyes and felt her so far away from me...a feeling I never want to feel again but I think we have gone past it. She had a drawing made for my eyes only and it is one I will keep in my journal. Sana is beautiful...just beautiful.

I mentioned I have been feeling restless and I've boiled it down to two things. One is I miss the sparring in the sands and second I miss my girl. She too has been busy helping with the children and that's good and fine but she has always been at my feet, removing my boots, serving my kalana, my meals and even my mead. :::thinks::: All this sand makes me want her northern serve which I will treat myself to next we spend a few ehn together. We even used to go to the paga den and she would dance for me. Now once in a great while will she serve me. I spent a few ahn with her the other night, she gave me a bath, something she hasnt done in a long time, it was like old times and it helped me in my thoughts with the events of that day. It helped me in dealing with my anger and to realize that the world is changing but what is constant is the love of my girl. She has been with me since my coming to Lydius and its been decided a long while back she will burn with me on my pyre.

I have left word for Trenton to join us in Turmas and I received word back that he will be heading to Turia in a days turning. He seemed confident that the hunt will now not happen so I am glad that I brought Sana to Minu Taslim. I also predict she will have the babies sooner than the coming moon. She seemed concerned about the pain and the events of what will happen during the birthing but I tried to reassure her she will be fine. She says she knows but whether she believes me or not is unsure.

I know Im leaving something out and come Lar-Torvis when I have to scribble your pages again I will hopefully have remembered.