17th day of Se'Var (10) in the year 10,157 CA

Well, they're here!! They are officially one day old. My sons, Tejan Alaric and Pasha Anakin, the last of the Tormaigh brood. They are so tiny and so precious and they smell so good! Well, sometimes they smell pretty rancid but most of the time they smell like new baby. Sana's labor and delivery was surprisingly quick and she did wonderful. The babies came out with no complications, I cut the cord and then I got to hold them. I am relieved more than I am happy...should that be right? It seemed those boys took forever to arrive and they made Sana so sick that I have decided I do not wish to see her like that again, we will have no more children. I honestly dont know how my brother Van and his mate keep a sane mind with so many children. Maybe its becauase Sindel is the mother of all of his children. Maybe that was my mistake, letting go of the woman that was clearly destined to be my true mate. But we all learn from our stumbles and falls only to get back up and make things right again. Clearly my sons are strong wee warriors and Pasha, he's the kicker. He is always kicking his little chubby legs. Trenton has come to visit us here in Turmas and he even got to hold Tejan.

It truly was great to see Trenton. We had a long talk about issues that I am having, his advice always valued and weighed. After speaking with him I always know in which direction I will take my life. Now that my sons have arrived we will get back to Lydius. I need to take Fury home. I know that I prolly should sail back with Sana and the children but I am much to anxious to return to my city and my duties. I will fly back and arrive before the Ubar to prepare for his return home, make sure everything is in order. It will also give me time to think about things and formulate words for when I must speak to Sana of these feelings I have been hording and keeping to myself. The longer I pretend and continue this charade will only come back to haunt me and that is unlike me. To be honest, I havent been myself in a very, very long time and little by little, the cloud has lifted and I see where I am at and I dont like it. Its time I took the bosk by the horns and returned to that state of mind that Im famed for.

Trenton said he would sail by daybreak and so I must get things in order for Sana and the children's voyage. Until next time....