1st day of Fourth Hand of the Month of En'Kara (1) in the year 10,162 CA

Clouds. I am finally out of the clouds, my judgement has finally returned. I cant believe how I allowed myself to even pretend to be sane when every action Odin watched me perform was without thought. I suppose every sleen has his day and I am not immune to such. The city continues to thrive, visitors seeking passage if even just a few days the citizens of Lydius all await guests and savor every ihn we have with them, its the way of the Lydians.

My sons Tejan and Pasha have been with me for a couple of moons now and their studies keep them well occupied to where dinner with their father is not often savored but I will not deter their efforts. If anyone knows, I do, that hard work is not to be trifled with and sometimes it is what keeps us out of the clouds. But along those lines I do also know that life is not all work but memories we create, and so if they go over board in their hard work, I will teach them to play as well. Marcus has been itching to go on a hunt but duties have kept us both in city but when the time comes for us we will take up weapons and head into the forest in hopes of catching that one great kill that brings food upon our tables and pelts upon our backs....:::thinks of the tooth Trenton left him::::  and other parts of the beasts we hunt around our necks....my sons will be able to be included. Oh, they have much to learn and my focus now is on them.

Callie is back from Cos and has been for a few hands. I must speak to her again about her devotion to cake. Not so much as that being a bad thing but it might not agree with her hips and I cant have my EnMerchant waddling around all of Gor making trade alliances with other cities based on their cake. No, its time she get a grip and get of out of the clouds as well....or should I say frosting?

My girls tending their chores have me well pleased. Chores not always what I want them doing but its good for them being that I have been neglectful in show of affection to them. bella especially has grown to be a big part of my heart, the way she looks at me makes me well aware of her devotion and the need to please me, can make a man weak. That is why with her I am more fierce and she knows that, she understands it as does ember, thalia is another story. I must take the time to spend with her, she is like a frightened giani, cowering in her cell. I will make a point of spending some time with her these coming hands. But bella being so new to my chain she is learning fast and I am pleased.

Aye, my book of rence...I am finally feeling normal again. Thanks be to Odin!