3rd day of Third Hand of the Month of Se'Kara (7) in the year 10,163 CA

Melancholy - is what I would consider my state. Pensive yes, depressed spirits...yes. I have left my Home Stone, for my heart was Lydius and I would assume my mood would be as such for a time. I have given myself ample, I fear and yet my mood remains so perhaps I should set my thoughts to rence and see if Odin's plans will lift this cloud I seem to be under.

My ember has done all she can to keep my day to day seamless, the loss of my girl lust is also a loss felt that adds to my state. I would have to say what has kept me sane is the company of the wonderful and warm Elyssa Ayperi, she and her son's innocence and dependency keep this worn man youthful and alert. Their protection, as with all my family and belongings, my utmost concern. I am no stranger to children for I've had my share and have left my legacy in Lydius, they will see fit their lives ahead of them. I will send word to them soon, I am not sure where and when I will settle upon land.

Being out at sea has its benefits tho we have stopped in the occasional port to let the tarns out, always the tarnsmen and keeper worried about their need to feel the wind beneath their wings and hunt for sport to feed upon the flesh that Odin has provided them.

Not much else I can set to rence but it seems this small tidbit has helped in my mood. It has made realize that I have no time for melancholy but I will always be pensive. My journal, I bid you farewell for now...I will sit with you upon my next need for healing...Odin's Blessings.